i was made for another world.

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I'm shy and eccentric. confidently lost. a little scatterbrained. but always goofy.

7.17.12 

Things I’ve learned (so far)…

I’ve learned that time is always short but it’s okay to take baby steps. I’ve learned that I’m not always right. I’ve learned that confidence builds trust and trust builds a relationship. I’ve learned that our brains don’t always function the same, but they don’t need to because communication and understanding will fill in the gaps. I’ve learned that you can’t tell your heart how to feel, or how to react, or when to let go. And to trust in that. Because the heart always wins. I’ve learned that doing something with half your heart is pointless. I’ve learned that sometimes someone can exceed every one of your expectations and surprise you in every way possible. I’ve learned you shouldn’t feel ashamed to be honest because we all just want to fit in. I’ve learned that you can’t promise things won’t get broken but it doesn’t mean give up. I’ve learned that you can change, but it’s never going to be in the way you’ve planned. I’ve learned that you can outgrow masochistic habits, but only when you truly want to. I’ve learned patience. Hell, I’ve learned patience. And sometimes it’s worth the wait. I’ve learned that it’s okay to laugh and cry and scream and hurt.  And the more you do, the stronger you feel. I’ve learned I’m afraid of what I’ll find if I talk sometimes. And I might push you away but I only have myself to blame. I’ve learned being vulnerable alone is important, but being vulnerable together is essential. I’ve learned that I don’t want to be alone anymore. And there was a reason why I always had hope. And most importantly, I’ve learned that when you have today, you should say all that you have to say.

Lost Lander-Wonderful World

The volcals are soothing and heavy with a fading sense of nostalgia buried deep inside them. The have a way of twisting right into your soul and pulling on your heart strings.  They make you feel like walking into the ocean in a numb daze.  It’s quite dreamy, really.

For listener of:  Mansions on the Moon, The xx

Bellarive-Taste of Eternity

A friend shared this band with me a while back and I never got around to posting about them until now. I don’t think a whole lot needs to be said other than how uplifting and powerful they truly are. Just wait for the break at 3:54….

I’ll be the first to admit, I’ve always been a little lost regarding my faith, so thank you to the person for guidance in the right direction.

Mother. Of. Fuck.

Ever have those moments where all you want to do is run around a forest half naked and be a lost boy? Okay, no….maybe just me? Well, prepare to have that moment! Enter: Jinja Safari. I know I’ve written about these fellas in the past but words can hardly describe how they are filling my soul. They really are quite captivating. Their perfect combination of vocals and beats will make you feel such an incredible sense of calmness yet at any moment you could explode with a childlike youthfulness. Okay, so maybe my slight obsession and association with anything of or relating to Peter Pan makes me a little biased but I’m telling you these guys will make you feel. Give ‘em a listen, I guarantee your mind and heart will race with such an incredible velocity.

 For listeners of: Jonsi & Paper Kites

It’s time-Imagine Dragon

Honestly, if the music video doesn’t do it for you, then I don’t know what will. It’s like Lord of the Rings, Never Ending Story, and Reign of Fire all montaged into one giant mass of awesomeness. Ok, so there are no actual dragons, but you can imagine, right? But seriously, this band will suck you right in. That sounded sort of gross… but nevertheless, the beats are infectious, the lyrics are honest and I think speak to generation of youth, stubbornness, and bravery. “It’s time to begin, isn’t it? I get a little bit bigger but then I’ll admit, I’m just the same as I was; Now don’t you understand? I’m never changing who I am.” Amazing food for the soul. Enjoy.

For listeners of: if Matt and Kim and The Dangerous Summer had a love child, it would be this.

Chairlift-I belong in your Arms

This is the kind of song that weaves right into your day, makes you drop everything and forget. It’s soft and light yet upbeat and synthy. I don’t know about you, but it makes me want to time travel back to the 80’s… hold up a boom box and shout things I never had the courage to say…or maybe just grab someone by the hand and run through the night streets without a care in the world.  It feels nice.

Keaton Henson-You Don’t Know How Lucky You Are

Thoughts…

I want to reach out and grab you. Shake out all the clutter going on in your head and let you know that everything is going to be alright. I want to stop you from seeing the world through destructive eyes. I want to hold you and kiss you, prove to you that love exists, even though it can leave you lying in a mess, chest ripped out and heart spilled out on the floor. I want to show you all the things you could never see. Make you feel. Because it’s necessary to grow. I want to hear your secrets. And for you to not be ashamed. Because what separates the brave man from the coward is his ability to look at himself in the mirror, with sincere eyes and an open soul, and genuinely want to be the best version of himself he can be. I want to reach beyond the hours and the days. Hold you in my arms like ocean waves. I want to show you the beauty of this world. Make you believe when it can’t be proven scientifically. I want you to know I exist….

For listeners of: Bon Iver and Dry the River

Holy.  Shit.  I must see this.

Derweze, also known as the door to hell, is a 70 meter wide hole in the middle of the Karakum desert in Turkmenistan. The hole was formed in 1971 when a team of soviet geologists had their drilling rig collapse when they hit a cavern filled with natural gas. In an attempt to avoid poisonous discharge, they decided to burn it off, thinking that the gas would be depleted in only a few days. Derweze is still burning today 

(via goodnamesgone)

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Her voice is haunting, honest, creepy, and it consumes your soul in a fire that leaves you bare and with a feeling of insecurity. It’s a thirst of every cell in my body for more.  More love, more experience, more hurt, more life. That’s what makes this song so beautiful. Even in all its rawness, stripped down it leaves room for the anxiety, the general worry about life, and insecurity to grow. Because once the fog dissipates, and you can see yourself fully exposed, completely naked with all your flaws, you can finally pick yourself back up.

I’m not sure if any of that even made sense but I guess what I’m trying to say it that it’s pretty strange how one person’s words can affect a complete stranger in such a deep way.  And it’s different for every soul.  But sometimes, even if for a moment, it all comes back to the beginning.  It all comes back to love. And a connection.  And a memory.  And I think that’s pretty beautiful.

For more of the atmospheric, orchestral vocals of the beautiful, retro-‘60’s-sounding Lana Del Rey, be sure to check out her full length Born to Die.

For listeners of: Birdy, Nilu, the xx